Yesterday was a difficult day, 2 years since the passing of my wonderful mother. I spent the day reflecting while burying myself in work as a distraction. It's certainly eye opening how time can pass so very quickly without allowing time for any kind of healing. I've spent these two years wishing things had never happened the way they did while also slowly forgetting and locking away the memories. How time can work both in your favour and against you is quite strange.
Days like that certainly dig up those feelings and put them at the front of my mind. It's hard to think of all the wonderful things I'll be doing with my life in the next year and not having my mother there to witness any of it. Sometimes it's easy to feel like this is only happening to me but I try and remind myself that there are so many people at the same time going through exactly what my family did. It's not consolation that another family is suffering, rather puts my mind in check as far as feeling pessimistic about my own experiences.
I live my life every day with a smile and try to approach every situation with a positive attitude. If these two years have taught me anything, it's that time will fly by regardless of whether you are miserable and sad or a bucket of smiles, so I want to make every attempt to spread smiles. Negativity is as contagious as positivity and it's so easy to hurt someone or bring them down when we ourselves are negative.
I miss my mom every day but I also know that she wouldn't want any of us still suffering so I try to remember that. She was truly an amazing woman and I'll always remember how many fabulous memories I was lucky enough to make with her.
There never seems to be enough time to get on here and get personal. I've been so very busy between working both jobs that I haven't found the time to reflect on anything happening in my life. Here's where I'm at;
Sometimes just getting on here and typing out my feelings does the trick. Letting out some of these emotions is beneficial in the healing process so I love having the opportunity to sit down and just type out my how I feel. Thank you all for listening ;)
So that sums things up for now. I'll be back with more news as it comes, take care everyone !
It's been a hectic couple of weeks with Christmas and New Years having come and gone. I've been up to a lot and I wanted to touch base with y'all about where I'm at :)
Thanks for sticking with me everyone, I'm hoping to make 2017 one to remember!
As always, Christmas is approaching and I am starting to feel a touch overwhelmed with all of the things that need to get done. I seem to find myself in this position every year and this year is no different.
As far as Christmas goes, I have yet to begin any of my shopping for my 5 wonderful nephews and this is causing me a touch of stress. I think I am feeling so behind this year because I am working quite a lot and don't seem to have as much time to get everything done. No excuses though, the kiddies need their gifts so I'm going to have to get my arse to the mall!
I am also wondering how in the heck I'm going to start up this tomato sauce business when I can't seem to find any spare time. I don't want to overwork myself but I also have so many things I want to achieve and they all require money. I am going to have to slow down come the new year so that I can focus more so on my blog and business ventures and less on working my life away.
I have to admit though that I was quite elated at the positive responses I was getting in regards to starting to sell my tomato sauces. There was a good amount of interest from friends on sociakl media so I'm looking forward to seeing where this takes me! I was recently in touch with the Canada Business Network and they provided me with all of the necessary steps involved with registering your own business. I'm so excited to get this all started but it definitely won't be until the hussle and bussle of Christmas is over with.
Do you find yourselves overwhelmed at this time of year or are you the cool, calm, collected type?
Among the obvious reasons that I took the trip being sightseeing and visiting some veg friendly joints, I also was looking for something on a personal level. Up until then, I had never traveled alone. I had never really gone anywhere without a group of some kind and never really just picked a destination, booked, and went.
This experience taught me quite a few things about myself. I have grappled with anxiety for a large portion of my life and felt like it was holding me back from so many things. This trip was my way of proving to myself that my anxiety doesn't define me. I believe I will always be anxious but I refuse to allow it to be in control of me or my decisions. What this trip essentially taught me was that I am much more self sufficient than I ever realized.
This trip was a big step outside of my comfort zone. I wanted to prove to myself that my desire to travel wasn't just a pipe dream but that it was something I could actually do. I can honestly say after this trip that solo travel is totally manageable and something I can see myself continuing to do long after my veggie trip across Ontario is over. It was so exhilarating being in a new place alone, figuring everything out alone, finding my hotel alone, words don't describe the feeling.
The moral of this post is simple, do not allow what's in your head to hold you back. Anxiety is totally manageable if you fight hard enough and want to be in control. Sure I was still nervous laying over in Toronto surrounded by thousands of busy bodies, I was also nervous arriving in Kingston unaware of what my next step was. It didn't change the fact that I still went ahead and conquered and that's what I'm most proud of.
The sky's the limit and my anxiety can take the backseat!
I can't tell you how badly I want to travel. I'm at the age where I just want to escape and see things, learn things, and try things that are new. I attained my EU Blue Card which unfortunately hasn't resulted in my getting a hospitality job overseas.
I have always considered taking the ESL course and now with my desire to travel really influencing where I want to head in the future, it only seems natural to take advantage of this opportunity. Teaching English is great for so many reasons. Firstly, helping people learn! What a wonderful feeling knowing you're contributing to someone's success. Secondly, think of all the traveling / eating I can do!!! I can only imagine the world of vegetarian food that is waiting to inspire me. There is much to learn about food and I can't think of too many other fun ways like this to really take advantage.
Thirdly, you can live pretty much anywhere! Being self employed makes it so much easier to live abroad because you are not taking jobs from the local communities. In essence, I could move from place to place until I wanted to settle. It sounds so amazing!
I also have the option of taking a job at a school in a predominantly non-English speaking area. Despite the fact that this kind of scares me I also feel like it would be a challenge that would be so enlightening to overcome.
I am going to be researching different schools that tach the ESL course online and comparing prices within the next few weeks. Another opportunity knocks so I'm answering!
As summer (finally) comes to an end, I am looking forward to the cooler temperatures and all the wonderful dishes I'll be able to prepare in the oven. I've been avoiding the oven because it's just too darned hot to get near it.
I am still working two jobs and have a trip to cedar point coming up that I am looking forward to heavily. It's so nice to get away from all the responsibilities of adulthood and just be an immature kid for a few days. Other than that, my life is consisting of work and only work. I am hoping to find another avenue to make my cookbook available to you all because the original website isn't secure and I am too scared of information being stolen from someone which would devastate me.
I will check back with y'all again soon!
It's been a long few months thanks in part to my working 2 jobs. I've been working so much that I regularly forget what day of the week it is. It's all for the greater good however, I'm looking into purchasing / leasing a car in the next little while so all this work will pay off!
I'm absolutely in love with my current job at Healthy Mama's. It's wonderful to work closely with a great group of ladies who all happen to love food as much (maybe more) as I do. I'm learning some new things but most of all it has helped me work on my speed in the kitchen. I've told you guys before, I'm extremely slow. This is usually because I am writing the recipe as I cook and adjusting this or that but I am definitely slow. I've already started improving on the speed of my chopping which is great and I am feeling a bit more confident with the chefs knife.
It's looking like I am going to work the summer away. I have a good friends wedding coming up in July and that may very well be the only thing I do this summer lol Again, it's all for the greater good!
Hope you all are enjoying your summers so far!
Chat with you all again soon!
I'll be taking you guys with me for the ride so don't panic! :P
There aren't many things about my current hometown I'm necessarily awestruck by so having Ojibway Park close is such a blessing. It's an astoundingly beautiful park full of all sorts of different trees, plants, wildlife, and insects. Nearly every way you turn is the perfect photograph ahead of you, stunning. I am so glad I decided to utilize my only day off this way, it was so calming and relaxing (minus the mud trail we almost sunk into).
I wanted to share some snaps with you all!
Make sure to visit www.ojibway.ca for information about the park, its activities, and hours of operation.