There are so many things going through my head every day that sometimes I forget if I've already thought of something. I'm pretty overwhelmed between working, blogging, and trying to do ANY planning for what is likely to be the
Biggest Trip of my Life!!
Amidst all of the chaos, I am constantly reminded of what I am most excited about. Not only am I going to Ireland for two years, travelling, and trying all sorts of new things, but I am also dropping down to part time work. That might sound daunting to some of you, but I've literally worked my whole life away (minor exaggeration) and the prospect of having more time for myself is so exciting.
Under the stipulations of my program, I am entitled to work part time hours to help fund any travelling / living expenses I'll incur. I've worked full time hours since I was 15 / 16 years old and have really never taken any kind of break. Even now, I'm working both jobs and up to 65 hours a week which I'll tell you is extremely exhausting. I'm super grateful to have some pretty amazing people to work with every day, makes working a lot so much more enjoyable!
Anyways, working so little in a new country will truly be a remarkable experience. Having time to focus on my blog more and dive into more videos / travel vlogging is exactly what I need at this point in my life. I truly love blogging and learning / sharing new things all the time and I can't imagine a better opportunity to truly put my all into blogging and really taking care of myself.
Every day I wake up and think about all the scary things about the trip, but at the end of the day I'm always reminded of the opportunities I'll soon be encountering. I'm just so ready for this step in my life and I can't wait to get things going despite being so anxious :p
As I sit here watching House Hunters International, I can't help but think that in 4 very short months I'll be moving to Ireland for 2 years. I've watched these shows religiously for the last few years and always admired the courage it took to pick up and leave everything behind. Here I am, soon to do the very same thing.
I have been working literally day and night between jobs in an effort to save as much of a cushion as humanly possible. I am beyond exhausted but the prospect of working part time and travelling for 2 years has me motivated! I am overwhelmed with both nervousness and excitement and realize that 4 months is very little time for what I'm about to do. I have so much to accomplish in a short time and definitely have started to feel the pressure.
I am thoroughly looking forward to the opportunity to explore a new culture, see beautiful places and things, and meet some amazing people. Despite the fact that this is about as far outside my comfort zone as I can imagine, it is unusually satisfying at the same time. I'm nervous as hell but so excited to experience everything.
I imagine I'll be freakin' in a few months, but for now I'm enjoying the nervous excitement I'm feeling!
This morning I woke up and my first thought of the day was a reminder that I was leaving in 5 months. 5 months is both a long time and really no time at all when you consider the scope of the change I'll be engaging in. I'm already racking my brain trying to figure out everything I need to accomplish over the next couple of months prior to leaving and I can honestly say, my brain is on overload.
I'm in the process of selling off some of my appliances to help add some more funds to my bank account and I'm also working on getting maps and such together so i can start learning streets and spots to remember prior to my arrival. I definitely want to be prepared so that I don't allow myself to become overwhelmed when I get off of the plane in my new home. I'm sure I'll be overwhelmed regardless, but the thought of being prepared is a good one.
I am so excited for this opportunity and I will be keeping you all updated on how things are going as we wind down to my date of departure. :)
I've been a Vegetarian now for over 15 years and it's something that I've always been incredibly proud of myself for. Making a lifestyle shift of this nature and actually sticking to it is truly an accomplishment. I've faced backlash in my years whether through opposition of the lifestyle, jokes or crude comments related to animals, or the attack of the vegan who considers our efforts in vain.
Being a Vegetarian is something to stand up tall and be proud of!
Since starting to work in the kitchen at HEALTHY MAMA VEGAN CAFE (www.healthy-mama.com) almost a year ago, I've had the opportunity to work with so many wonderful, passionate people. I've been able to have deep, meaningful conversations with like minded people about animals which has been so amazing. It has also reminded me that there is always more to be done when fighting for a cause.
I have since cut out eggs almost entirely from my diet and only consume milk in my coffee. My biggest hurdles were, and always will be, CHEESE! Cheese is my achilles heel, I absolutely love it. Some days I feel like I'd never be able to survive without a creamy, delicious, rich cheese product in my life. This is why becoming a vegan has always been something I contemplated but never followed through with. And that's when I sort of realized, my own selfishness is preventing me from committing to an even greater, healthier lifestyle.
The health aspect of making this switch is super exciting but at the end of the day, it's all for the animals. I feel hypocritical saying I love animals and petitioning for their rights while also contributing to their suffering. Watching that video really reminded me why I became a Vegetarian over 15 years ago, I wanted to help animals. I wanted to be a part of a change in the way society and the government viewed animals. I have worked hard to fight for animal rights and want to feel wholly involved in this advocation. To do this, going Vegan is the next step in my journey.
I am leaving for Ireland in September / October and will be there for 2 years. During that time I will continue my journey as a Vegetarian and enjoy the experiences and challenges that will be presented to me. When I come back from this Working Holiday, my very first challenge to tackle will be making the switch to Veganism. It will not be easy for me but my love for animals and motivation to see them respected and treated better will be what fuels my success.
I love animals and I understand my role as an advocate so I'm ready to take the plunge and commit to a Vegan lifestyle!
Yesterday was a difficult day, 2 years since the passing of my wonderful mother. I spent the day reflecting while burying myself in work as a distraction. It's certainly eye opening how time can pass so very quickly without allowing time for any kind of healing. I've spent these two years wishing things had never happened the way they did while also slowly forgetting and locking away the memories. How time can work both in your favour and against you is quite strange.
Days like that certainly dig up those feelings and put them at the front of my mind. It's hard to think of all the wonderful things I'll be doing with my life in the next year and not having my mother there to witness any of it. Sometimes it's easy to feel like this is only happening to me but I try and remind myself that there are so many people at the same time going through exactly what my family did. It's not consolation that another family is suffering, rather puts my mind in check as far as feeling pessimistic about my own experiences.
I live my life every day with a smile and try to approach every situation with a positive attitude. If these two years have taught me anything, it's that time will fly by regardless of whether you are miserable and sad or a bucket of smiles, so I want to make every attempt to spread smiles. Negativity is as contagious as positivity and it's so easy to hurt someone or bring them down when we ourselves are negative.
I miss my mom every day but I also know that she wouldn't want any of us still suffering so I try to remember that. She was truly an amazing woman and I'll always remember how many fabulous memories I was lucky enough to make with her.
There never seems to be enough time to get on here and get personal. I've been so very busy between working both jobs that I haven't found the time to reflect on anything happening in my life. Here's where I'm at;
Sometimes just getting on here and typing out my feelings does the trick. Letting out some of these emotions is beneficial in the healing process so I love having the opportunity to sit down and just type out my how I feel. Thank you all for listening ;)
So that sums things up for now. I'll be back with more news as it comes, take care everyone !
It's been a hectic couple of weeks with Christmas and New Years having come and gone. I've been up to a lot and I wanted to touch base with y'all about where I'm at :)
Thanks for sticking with me everyone, I'm hoping to make 2017 one to remember!
As always, Christmas is approaching and I am starting to feel a touch overwhelmed with all of the things that need to get done. I seem to find myself in this position every year and this year is no different.
As far as Christmas goes, I have yet to begin any of my shopping for my 5 wonderful nephews and this is causing me a touch of stress. I think I am feeling so behind this year because I am working quite a lot and don't seem to have as much time to get everything done. No excuses though, the kiddies need their gifts so I'm going to have to get my arse to the mall!
I am also wondering how in the heck I'm going to start up this tomato sauce business when I can't seem to find any spare time. I don't want to overwork myself but I also have so many things I want to achieve and they all require money. I am going to have to slow down come the new year so that I can focus more so on my blog and business ventures and less on working my life away.
I have to admit though that I was quite elated at the positive responses I was getting in regards to starting to sell my tomato sauces. There was a good amount of interest from friends on sociakl media so I'm looking forward to seeing where this takes me! I was recently in touch with the Canada Business Network and they provided me with all of the necessary steps involved with registering your own business. I'm so excited to get this all started but it definitely won't be until the hussle and bussle of Christmas is over with.
Do you find yourselves overwhelmed at this time of year or are you the cool, calm, collected type?
Among the obvious reasons that I took the trip being sightseeing and visiting some veg friendly joints, I also was looking for something on a personal level. Up until then, I had never traveled alone. I had never really gone anywhere without a group of some kind and never really just picked a destination, booked, and went.
This experience taught me quite a few things about myself. I have grappled with anxiety for a large portion of my life and felt like it was holding me back from so many things. This trip was my way of proving to myself that my anxiety doesn't define me. I believe I will always be anxious but I refuse to allow it to be in control of me or my decisions. What this trip essentially taught me was that I am much more self sufficient than I ever realized.
This trip was a big step outside of my comfort zone. I wanted to prove to myself that my desire to travel wasn't just a pipe dream but that it was something I could actually do. I can honestly say after this trip that solo travel is totally manageable and something I can see myself continuing to do long after my veggie trip across Ontario is over. It was so exhilarating being in a new place alone, figuring everything out alone, finding my hotel alone, words don't describe the feeling.
The moral of this post is simple, do not allow what's in your head to hold you back. Anxiety is totally manageable if you fight hard enough and want to be in control. Sure I was still nervous laying over in Toronto surrounded by thousands of busy bodies, I was also nervous arriving in Kingston unaware of what my next step was. It didn't change the fact that I still went ahead and conquered and that's what I'm most proud of.
The sky's the limit and my anxiety can take the backseat!
I can't tell you how badly I want to travel. I'm at the age where I just want to escape and see things, learn things, and try things that are new. I attained my EU Blue Card which unfortunately hasn't resulted in my getting a hospitality job overseas.
I have always considered taking the ESL course and now with my desire to travel really influencing where I want to head in the future, it only seems natural to take advantage of this opportunity. Teaching English is great for so many reasons. Firstly, helping people learn! What a wonderful feeling knowing you're contributing to someone's success. Secondly, think of all the traveling / eating I can do!!! I can only imagine the world of vegetarian food that is waiting to inspire me. There is much to learn about food and I can't think of too many other fun ways like this to really take advantage.
Thirdly, you can live pretty much anywhere! Being self employed makes it so much easier to live abroad because you are not taking jobs from the local communities. In essence, I could move from place to place until I wanted to settle. It sounds so amazing!
I also have the option of taking a job at a school in a predominantly non-English speaking area. Despite the fact that this kind of scares me I also feel like it would be a challenge that would be so enlightening to overcome.
I am going to be researching different schools that tach the ESL course online and comparing prices within the next few weeks. Another opportunity knocks so I'm answering!